“I see you now with someone new,
I stare. I blink.
Wishing that I didn’t see you.
But you’re there.
Am I dreaming again?
Someday I’ll be over you,
I know, I know.
They are standing in front of each other, after dancing with Jeff earlier, Jeff’s dad called him again to meet someone. Jeffrey pulled Maya along with him and so, she ended up facing Richard. She doesn’t know that it will be him who his father would want Jeffrey to meet.
Every step she take feels like hell. And Richard’s stares didn’t help her to feel good. Anyway, why would she hope for him to be nice to her when she left him in Paris? Wait. Why should he get mad at her? He’s the one who assumed that there’s something between them. Geez!
“Jeff, son, this is Richard Lim, our client, well hopefully he will accept us.” Jeff’s dad nodded beside him where Richard is standing. Richard tore his gaze away from Maya to reach out his hand for a handshake towards Jeff.
“Hi. Nice to meet you.”
“Nice to meet you, too Mr. Lim. We’re hoping to do business with you soon.” Jeffrey converses with a natural business like way
Richard could only give a nod before his eyes darted towards Maya again. His stares make her flinch. Things churning inside her stomach in any moment she might throw up with this feeling.
“And this beautiful girl is? Your girl, I assume?” Richard asked Jeffrey but his eyes remained glued to her. It still lacks the sweetness on his eyes when they’re still in Paris.
“Uh.. No, not yet. Hindi pa ulit.” He answered but his arm laid protectively on her shoulder. “By the way, this is Maya.” He introduced her
“Oh. Hi, Maya. Nice to meet you.” Richard gave her a huge smile but she is so sure that it isn’t real. His eyes doesn’t shine anymore.
“Uh.. H-hi.” She stutters as she reaches his hand for a handshake. Richard pressed her hand tighter then she saw him frowned at her for a while.
She doesn’t know what to do next. She can’t be with him alone. She needs to go home as soon as possible. The thought of breathing the same air with him again makes her uneasy. Earlier, she misses him and now that he’s inches away from him, he doesn’t know what to do. What is wrong with her?!
Relax, Maya. You can talk to him in a natural way. Just like old friends. Yes. Pretend. You’re good at that. She breathes heavily while reminding herself. The three continued to talk about business. She’s right, Richard is not one of their family friends or relatives. He is just a business man that Jeffrey’s family needed to impress. Oh great! She is not aware how rich Richard is, until now.
His family owns a chain of restaurants and even five star hotels. This can’t be. She thought that he’s an ordinary guy in Manila who’s earning pretty well but it never crossed her mind that he could be this rich!
Richard would still cast glances at her which makes her blush. Oh how she misses being close to him.
But then, she’s aware that there is something more from his gazes. He is mad and she doesn’t know if it is still because she left him in Paris.
She wishes she could turn around again and fly back to Paris, chasing the night she left him behind so that she won’t be stuck in such awkward situation right now. Wait, what will she do if she can go back? Will she stay?
“Uhm, excuse me po, tito, Jeff, ah.. Mr. Lim pasok lang po muna ako sa loob.” She decided she needed to breathe so she asked for permission to go inside the house, maybe she could go to the comfort room where she can be alone. As she mentioned “Mr. Lim” Richard’s eyebrows furrowed.
Jeff and his father smiled and nodded at her as if giving her permission to leave.
Walking aimlessly to the comfort room, she can feel her face burning as she remembers how Richard’s eyes fixes on her. And she is so damn sure that his eyes were still glued on her back.
“Breathe, Maya..” She muttered after closing the comfort room door near the kitchen. Everything that had happened in Paris flashes back in her brain. Their first encounter, their tours, their breakfast, lunch and dinner dates, and their kisses… Wait! Did she just remembered those sweet kisses of his on her lips? Geez!
She buries her face with her hands and sighed. How could someone make her feel like this? This is impossible! They’ve just met for weeks, yet his impact on her is unbearable.
She opened the faucet and let the cold water run through her shaky hands. She wanted so bad to go home so this night could end. She is so uncomfortable with Richard around. She should go now. Right! She will go back and bid goodbye to everyone.
As soon as she set her foot out of the comfort room, she saw Richard standing just outside the door near the kitchen’s countertop. His arms were crossed and his eyes were darting towards her. She almost jumped when she saw him there.
“Uh.. Gagamit ka ng cr?” She asked lamely. There is a possibility that he is not waiting for her, right? He might have wanted to use the comfort room, too. Yeah, right!
That part of the house is isolated from people at the moment. Maya is silently praying that someone will barge in to break the thick awkward air between them.
Richard is staring, his eyes were devoid of any emotion which makes Maya more nervous. She doesn’t know what to do next. Heck! What crime did she committed to him to make her feel so guilty?
“No. I am actually waiting for you.” Richard answered softly, almost in a whispher.
Her breathing hitched at the sound of familiarity. That is his teasing voice that he uses to her, except that now, he is not smiling.
“Ha? Ba-bakit? Tungkol saan?” She asked, her hands were shaking. She doesn’t know how to escape anymore.
He took two steps forward so they are much more closer than earlier. “About, how beautiful Paris was.” He said. Like he meant it.
Maya covered her face with her hand. “Richard.. Please.. I already told you, di ba? We were just friends.” Her voice dropped to almost nothing.
Richard breathes quickly “I know. You already told me countless times.” He said without any bitterness whatsoever in his voice. “Gusto lang naman kitang kamustahin. It’s been a while…” He added and grinned.
Their conversation is getting more uncomfortable for her. Seeing him after what seemed to be years make her mind miss him. “I..I am good. Ah.. Ikaw?”
“Better. It is really good to see you, and to see you with.. Him.” His eyes stared right into hers, somehow searching for something. “Anyway, I should go back. Yun lang naman. Gusto lang kitang kamustahin. Bye, Maya. I didn’t have any proper goodbye to you.” He gave her a smile before turning his heels to leave her standing there.
She stared at his figure leaving her. For a second, she thought that he will beg for her to reconsider her decision of them staying as friends. She might, at that moment say that she changed her mind and would love to go out with him again.
But he didn’t ask. And worse, he bid her goodbye. The heck, Maya! What are you even thinking? You’ve been guilty all this time for hurting someone, and now that you see him again and you are assured that he is better now, why are you hurting that he didn’t try to reach out to you again? You are disappointed that he didn’t talk to you longer. “Ano ba, Maya!!” She muttered to herself.
She went back to the garden a few minutes after that short conversation with Richard. She’s ready to go home, so she’s just looking for Jeffrey and his parents to bid goodbye. She can’t stay any longer in the same place with Richard. She’s been breathing the same air with him.
“Jeffrey, I need to go home.” She pulled his sleeve as soon as she saw him walking his way somewhere, on another businessman, maybe.
He checked his watch before saying “but you’ve been here for just 2hrs. Can you stay a little longer?” He almost pleaded, she assumed it is because he can’t leave the place just yet more than he really wanted her to stay.
“No. Sorry, I really need to go. Okay lang, I can hail a cab. Don’t worry.” She answered while pulling his sleeve some more.
“No, Maya. Ihahatid kita pauwi. Okay, let’s just say goodbye to my parents.” He smiled before holding her hand and guiding her towards his parents.
After saying goodbyes to Jeffrey’s parents, and other relatives which took her another half hour to do, they are now on their way out of the garden. Finally!
Few more steps and she can now breathe normally. Her heart has been pounding hard while she’s still there and her brain is overthinking. This is not a healthy place for her at the moment.
When Maya suddenly felt the urge to look back again at the people chattering and partying in the garden, her eyes rounded in shock. She saw Richard, and she had to take a longer stare just to confirm that it is really him flirting with a girl.
The lady beside Richard is wearing a red dress that fit her perfectly and ended way above her knees. The lady is whispering something and after that, Richard would burst into laughter. A few seconds more, the lady’s finger started running in his arms even they are few meters away, her eyes can clearly see everything.
Richard gave the lady a grin. But as if he knew that someone is looking at them, he shifted his eyes to where Maya is standing. Their eyes met and locked for a few seconds before Richard gave Maya a smile and turned back to flirting with the girl.
She doesn’t know what she had felt that moment. Mixed emotions swirl inside her body which is too much for her to handle. She had to leave. She needed to breathe.
“Maya..” She jolted at the touch of Jeffrey behind her. He looked worried. “Are you, okay?” He asked
“Ah.. Oo, sorry. Tara na?”
“Yes. Sige, kilala mo ba si Jane?” He asked as they continue their way towards the house’s door.
“H-ha? Sino??” She was clueless on who is he talking about or maybe she isn’t really listening.
“Si Jane, yung kasama ni Mr. Lim. Sa kanila ka kasi nakatingin tapos you stopped walking.”
“J-Jane?” She asked him, knowing that girl’s name makes her uncomfortable.
“Yeah. She’s part of the company na nakikipag-usap madalas sa company nila Mr. Lim. I never knew that they are dating.” He shrugged
“Ha? Hindi ah.” She replied before she could think of what she had said.
“So, kilala mo nga sya?” He asked, confused
“Ah.. Oo, slight. Pero di naman kami close.” She answered hoping for him to stop asking, fortunately, he bought what she said and they continued their way towards his car talking something about their next dinner date, whatsoever, Maya’s mind is so not into it at the moment.
hi! Thankyou sa pagbabasa. I’m not sure when will be the next update. It won’t be soon. But I will try. 🙂 🙂 🙂