One More Chance Chapter 2: Where are you?

Chapter 2: Where are you?

Sarah’s POV

“Congrats Sarah!

– your forever fan, Idan”

 

I am staring at it for a couple of minutes now while everyone is busy doing their job for the concert. I, myself is nervous and yet excited for tonight. I can’t help myself but to wonder if he will watch my concert. And nope, I am not thinking about Ge, I am thinking about Idan. Yes, him. I was surprised for the tulips, and it would be better if I will see him tonight. I miss him, and if you’ll ask me why, I, myself didn’t know either, all I know is that I miss him enormously.

“Sarah, get ready now okay? The show is about to begin!” The staff told me then hurriedly turns away

This is it. I looked at the mirror one last time to check how I look. I smiled then went out of the dressing room to face the audience.

As I step on the stage, I gave my very best. I was beyond happy to see that a lot of people are here to support me tonight. My friends and supporters are here..and uhm, Ge. I am glad they came. But wait, where is John Lloyd? Will he watch me tonight? Or did he gave me flowers because he couldn’t make it? How I wish he could come.

I am delivering my thank yous to those who watched. ‘Nasaan ka John Lloyd?’ these words keep on repeating in my mind. Where are you?! No one can tell where he is. I walk down the stage and looked for him quietly. I went to Ge to thank him and then he escorted me along the way. He is such a gentleman. He is a nice guy. I do like him but not as much as how I like Idan. But maybe, he doesn’t feel the same way anymore for he is not here in the special day of mine. I shrugged, well maybe he’s just busy. Yes, he is only busy, I told myself.

The concert ended and it was indeed a successful one. I went back to the dressing room to change.

“Sasa!” someone called my name so  I looked back. It was Ge smiling at me.

“Congrats! Your concert was great and I am not surprised that it will turn out good” he continued while walking closer to me.

“sus! Bolero. Well, thanks anyway for watching.” I answered

“You’re welcome..Uhm, So, after this uwi ka na?”

“Maybe kakain muna somewhere then rest na.”

“ok good. You take care okay? I will go home na.”

He bid goodbye so I nodded. He kissed me on my cheek and went away. I like it when he’s so caring and all. I guess I am starting to like him more… or am I just forcing myself to like him to divert my feelings for Idan? Crap.

I twist and flip on my bed. I hate it. Why won’t you make me sleep John Lloyd? I am tired and all but I still can’t sleep.

I keep on checking my phone if there is a message from him, but to no avail. Sarah, please oh please, stop it. He is happy and you should also be.

I turned the tv on just to make my eyes tired so I could have some rest. I switch through channels and a breaking news caught my eyes. It’s a showbiz report about break-ups.

Is this true? Idan is courting Angel? They were rumoredly seen together. Tears fell from my eyes. Crap. Why am I crying? Why am I hurting? We are not that even close anymore. I am starting to hate myself from reacting this way. I turn off the  TV and tried to get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow things will be better.

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One more chance Chapter 1: Best Thing I Never Had

 

Chapter 1: Best Thing I Never Had

 

Sunday. The best day in the week, well at least for me. Since the day when our movie was put on shelve, I can’t help it. I had felt once again that strange feeling that I had felt before when we had different paths in life that we took.

 

Every once in a while we would see each other, she would say hi and will give me her sweetest smile. That smile that captured my heart. We were okay, as she would always say but I know and I can feel that there is something missing….US. The old us.

 

I sat comfortably on the couch. I looked at the clock. 8pm as it says. I will start my weekly habit in a bit. I will watch her perform. She never fails to amaze me. I turned the television on and waited for her weekly show. The clock keeps on ticking. I was impatient now. In 1,2,3,4 and the show started. My eyes were glued on the television. I heard her laugh. I love it when she chuckles, it is like a music to my eras that I would like to put on repeat.

 

Blah.blah.blah.. that name again, I wonder if she really likes that guy. I would often hear others tease her to him. I don’t know if they are really closer now, all I know is that she is happy when he is around her for I am not blind not to see that. But somehow, my heart is telling me that she is at her best when we’re together. I was about to switch the channel when suddenly she was asked by her ate Juday about her favourite movie that she did. I don’t know but somehow, I am hoping that she would answer ours but then again, she opt to smile instead, well as expected. It is better that way anyway, instead of me hearing things that my heart couldn’t bear to hear.

 

After the commercial break, my birthday greeting for her was shown. I almost forgot that. I remember when I was asked for a message, I was about to say happy birthday Sarah, just that. A simple and formal greeting would do. But my heart is shouting words beyond m mind could ever think of.

 

“Happy Birthday Sarah” a mantra that I am repeating in my mind. In 3,2,1 here it goes. “Happy Birthday Sarah…sana talaga masaya ka.” These were the last words that I remembered which my heart blurted out.

 

I know that somehow, rumors might be true. Well, I am only wishing the best for her, coz I am in pain whenever I see her cry. I don’t know if it was just me, but her statement song made her answer the unanswered question earlier. I hate it when my heart keeps on hoping.

 

 

 

July 7, that birthday concert of hers. I was excited. I finished all of my commitments in a week to be able to see her today. I called someone to pick up the flowers that I ordered for Sarah. A bouquet of Tulips with a note that says “Congrats Sarah!- your forever fan, Idan” I would love to say more but I suppress my heart in doing so.

 

Inside the big dome, I waited for the show to start from a distance. I saw some of our friends from the show business coming in, I even saw Gerald…I felt that pain again. Damn. Why is he here? Oh great, as if that I don’t know that he is courting her.

 

As the show started, I was astonished. She’s becoming more and more beautiful. My heart skipped a beat as she starts to sing and dance. I am hiding in the crowd, inconspicuously fidgeting. We are near yet so far, but my heart stays to where her heart is and is shouting ‘I love you’

 

I am happy for her. I smiled as I left Araneta without others noticing that I was there. As I stepped back, I steal a glance of her once more. I know that I am not needed here. She can have a very wonderful concert, for her inspiration is here..And I am not that guy now. She will forever be, the best thing I never had.

It Takes A Man and A Woman (Ashlloyd Block Screening)

Last April 13, 2013 was a blast. I’ve waited for the movie (the part 3) for 4 years and it was indeed, worth the wait. So, Yesterday was my nth time to watch the movie and still, I can’t get over. That giddy feeling like omgggg. haha! Never felt such giddiness for years. ;p Anyway, We’ve reserved 3 slots for the block screening last March. Too bad my best friend can’t go with us. I, myself was in a family outing but I told them that I really have to go earlier than expected so I could watch the BS, like geez! I don’t even know the place where we went for swimming and I have to commute! haha.

I am really glad that we made it to the venue which is in Eastwood Cinema 3. So, John Lloyd came before the screening started saying “Hello mga bebe ko!” he is sooooo cute! Rowell Santiago is also there. And uhm, we watched the movie, the crowd’s laugh is really loud. It’s like they’ve watched it for the first time! haha anyway, Sarah came few more minutes before the movie ends. She rushed all the way from her TVC shoot. She is so nice and pretty. Got a picture with her. It was indeed a good day! We also got mugs as souvenirs 🙂Image